Just because
you are mentally ill
you are mentally ill
doesn’t mean that
you could not possibly have
bad intentions.
Just because you say nice things
to my face
to my face
very sincerely
(BUT this is actually
gaslighting!)
doesn't mean
you weren’t actively
undermining me in
every other area.
I kind of knew
all along
(dang that ever present
self doubt)
but in my eagerness
to please
to fit in and
to be of service,
I dismissed
my misgivings,
my very
(always dead-on accurate)
intuition
about you.
But now NOW
I see clearly
see it,
SEE you.
As I think back over
the last almost two years,
I realize
that I have been
working with
the most cunning and
polished
narcissist I have
ever met
and because
I did not recognize you,
in the fog of your
blandishments and
bullshit and
oh-so-cunning
manipulations,
you almost destroyed me.
But,
like all of your kind,
you cannot sustain either
the destructive behavior
and false assurances,
the hoovering of other’s
tears and smiles,
rage and laughter
(all often generated
by you),
while you smugly
sit back
with your sycophants
and feed and
grow fat(ter) on
other’s fear and
misfortune and
confusion.
and trusting lack of
self awareness.
And so you leave
to find
new victims,
new energy sources,
new flying monkeys,
before you are
completely unmasked
here,
though you would,
of course,
heatedly deny
(and! attack! me!)
any and all assessments
and conclusions
spoken aloud by me,
though you know
that I know
and I know that
you know that
I know
now.
And the saddest part is
that I will not be
the only one
gratefully healing in
the relieved void
you will leave
in your self-righteous
delusional
wake
though most will
never understand
what hit us.
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