Sunday, April 24, 2011

Epic

…………………Tens
Reading to learn, experience, travel the world,
writing to understand and record a magic-filled life and
to escape the relentless expectations and tensions of others.
Worshiping the sun, the earth, nature.
Believing in fairies, talking to animals, seeking secret caves.
Bike and backyard adventures and seeing meaning and
message in every breeze and rock pile and soil formation.

…………………Teens
Absolutely broken by family and bullying.
Reading to escape, eating to sedate the rage and pain,
Counting the days (years) to freedom.
Writing abandoned as pointless, childish, unfulfilling.
Everyone uncomfortable with the
emerging scathingly truthful creative voice.
The volume on writing dialed down to mute, to the
level of assignment and required project.

………………..Twenties
Physical freedom at last attained
though unaware and unable to throw off the
clinging fetters of upbringing and indoctrination.
Rattling the mental chains as slow awareness of the
prison of the mind is revealed without solutions.
Transient relief attained through addiction,
word-smithing a chore of academia.


………………..Thirties
Unexpected violence and pregnancy.
Gravidity a double fecundity,
intense creativity and spirituality
addressed to and inspired by the rapidly swelling belly.
The demands of a new baby subsume
the old selfish life of addiction and escape
for a time.
Understanding and enlightenment and acceptance of
the Call to parent, mixed with battles to not
inflict the harms of the past on
the next generation
Inevitably spiraling into addiction again,
the disease and dysfunction of the past relentless.

…………………Forties
Intervention leads to un-sought-for awakening.
Addiction and self-harm at last arrested.
Life simplified to the current day.
The past now able to be slowly released and the
true clean self emerges from long hiding,
acutely discerning voice intact.
Freedom from self and past.
Writing for joy and love and faith and God and service.

(Today’s NaPo prompt: write an autobiographical poem.)

1 comment:

  1. divine progress, reading, writing, understanding, and growing...beautiful learning journey.

    elegant imagery.

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